Talk:Jamie Tait-Glossop

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I dreamt of OCESS electoral reform from the moment I was chosen as Education Commander in 2019. It's a desperately needed change for the club, and I realize that. I know that having this club choose its own leadership is pivotal to progress and quality hierarchy going forward. What I don't understand is why this choice included myself. I would be foolish to ignore my contributions to the club, but my performance, reception and general competency as a leader have failed to meet the standards of previous hierarchies, training, member intake, mission preparedness, and our treasured team of Alumni. I will not step down, despite my occasional desire to do so, as I believe that my title within the club shouldn't affect my ability to try my best and do what I can to uphold the integrity of my position until such a time as it can be taken by another. OCESS is in the midst of a difficult time and I do not believe that I am the Education Commander that it needs or deserves, but I am the one that it has. If this is read by any future members of OCESS, please know that I tried my best, and that I hope that whatever leaders come after me are as good as the club deserves. Sometimes democracy has its downsides, but who am I to question what my colleagues decide? --FaraFellow (talk) 16:54, 30 May 2020 (EDT)

Migraines are making sleep impossible again so I might as well say what's on my mind. I don't want this club to be a joke. This club is a monumental and important piece of education both past, present and future. This wiki is one of our few 'connections' to the outside world, and yet it seems to be a controversial opinion that the 'joke' parts of the wiki and the serious parts should remain separate. I don't even mean real partitions, just that comedic and serious material should remain on separate pages, even if said pages are linked. A colleague told me that 'this club has never been, is not, and won't be serious', but I don't see how not wanting blatant (and rather crass) memes posted on actual scientific information pages should be something worth a lengthy and exhausting argument (Bowling Pin Argument). This is a serious club, there are just some individuals who have never thought to see it as anything but a place to paste their funny ha-has all over and call anyone who doesn't like it stupid. I'm getting sick and tired of the stupid fucking arguments I have to get into over the most banal shit on a regular basis. This is a world/time where everything seems to be a distraction from the bigger, more important things you should be doing, which are also just distractions endlessly, to the point where finding the 'right thing to do' is damn near impossible. I've found something to do, but is it right? Maybe I'm just being too controlling again. I have no place limiting the freedoms of my colleagues, but I believe that it is my duty as Commander to do what I believe will advance our club, and I think doing that involves projecting a better image. I hate that the microcosm had to happen at 4 am on a Sunday while I'm six coffees down and having someone jackhammer my skull, but Change works in mysterious ways and I guess she decided today was when I was going to learn about our club's conflicting interests. I want to move on to bigger and better things, but I don't know if my idea of 'bigger and better' is the direction that others want to take. The fucking sun is rising. I can't believe myself, I said I would go to bed at 2200 and that was nearly seven hours ago. Tl;dr I don't know if I'm being a stuck-up asshole about my wiki content standards, and my head hurts. --FaraFellow (talk) 04:42, 31 May 2020 (EDT)